Got the graduation award I'd been told I lost after a five-minute daydream

The story

sorry for my bad grammar, not a fluent one lol.

i just wanna share something when i was a graduating student. 2 weeks before the graduation day i was doing my research paper, we were told about that I am no longer in class honour, that made me terrible, angry, and very sad at the moment. my goal was just to finish my papers and be done with it so i can have time to hate myself (and that time i have no idea what manifestation was).

and the day of my graduation came i was stunned in the middle of the stage because I still got a medal and award. And then i remember after 2 years when i was doing my papers i am enjoying the scene in my imagination where i was on that stage, the lights that irritating my eyes because they were awarding me medals, i was happy my heart is genuinely happy in my imagination. it was about 5 mins because it is just 1 song like pump up my mood. i dont have any intentions, i didnt pray and wish to make it happen. i just accepted the fact that i can no longer have any award, for me it was done. but then it happened:) after 2 weeks of just a 5 min imagination. i was not even surprised when i holding that metal in my hands. it feels ordinary because it is like a second time experience. and mind you in my class they were too stunned that i am the only one that got that award 😭😂 because i was schocked too at first because there's no way😭✋

and now i realised what other mentors were saying to enjoy the imagination, enjoying is allowing. youre already experienced that moment like you dont need it to happen. IT ALREAD HAPPENED. it's just 3d follow up.

happy living guys!