Almost $9k from an old 401k when I was down to $200

The story

Its not a lot but it was life changing to me.

I have done around 10k, twice. And I was at my lowest emotionally so I was super shocked. Once over a year ago, paid off my debt and totaled car. And then about 2 months ago, when my bank account dropped so low I was waking up having panic attacks. Dont remember exactly how I did the first one but this last time I really just didnt have time to panic in the morning. Too much responsibilities to take care of outside of worrying about money. Tbh, I fell off of manifesting. I lost a little faith. I didnt think i was good at it anymore (shame on me for my limiting beliefs because we're very clearly always doing it.)

I was waking up with panic attacks because bills were coming and food needed to be bought. One morning, I just decided against it. I said no, no, I don't have time for this. I've done it before with 10k, let's just do it again. I closed my eyes and held on to the anxious feeling really tight then told that feeling "I don't need you, you're not welcomed. You don't serve me. Youre not real. The universe WILL provide. Now get out of my way, I don't have time for this." The amount and how were not stated. I just couldn't allow myself to FEEL broke anymore. It was overwhelming. So I stopped giving it permission and instead decided everything was fine. Then I opened my eyes and breathed the anxious feeling out. Got up and got a cup of coffee.

The amount wasnt conscious at all, I was willing to take what I could get. (Credit card was damn near maxed out, I had nothing. Or so I thought.) A few days later I had the urge to check my email, 401k from my previous job asked me if I wanted to pull out the remaining balance. All I had to do was update my adress and wait 10 days for that to go through. I CRIED. I really cried. I thought they were going to send me 4k, I had a delinquent loan, but still 4k is a fuck ton when youre down to less than 200, and thanked the universe for providing. Promised to not lose faight again. (Thinking about this rn is making me tear up 🥲)

Thought I was getting 4k, enough to pay my credit card off and my bills, found out I was wrong 2 days after the 10 day period ended, when it hit my bank account. Apparently that delinquent loan was calculated in their withdrawal estimate so they sent me almost all of the 11k left in there. (Right under 9k)

Look, God. Allah. The Universe. Whatever you call it, just have faith. Thats all I can say, have faith, take a deep breath, ask politely and TRUST THAT THE UNIVERSE LOVES YOU! It wants nothing more than to provide for you.